lets get retareded in here

summer is here and im in the office and marc's in the navy. how great can summer get? haha. well, im not that bummed about it. i have so much clutter in my head and i cant get seem to get them out. oh no, im messed up. haha. im probably high from the medication. thank god im going to out of it soon. its driving me crazy. i shouldnt have gotten sick in the first place. i missed a lot this weekend!!!!!

one hot white chocolate for Aina?

maybe its stress.. maybe its the mere complexities of life.. maybe.. just maybe i'll get it all figured out someday...

a person once said to me that my sarcasm was one of the things that gave me character. maybe it wasnt just sarcasm. it could have been mY being stubborn as well. it still holds true that i want to throw my phone. not as drastic probably but i want to change my number again and not update as much people. that didnt sound the way i wanted it to be. anyway. im confused. i hate being confused. ok, im straight so dont get any ideas otherwise. especially you ben and reese. tonight is the last night. i sent my "goodbye-joke-ish" text and after that, the mobile number is gone. how i maganed to complicate my life over the weekend still surprises the hell out of me. this is what you get when you listen to yer heart than listening to yer goddamn head. dont get me wrong, it was fun knowing and having people in my life. but its better if i wasnt attached to them. (*message alert 5*) 1 message received. should i reply? should i walk away? damn. walking away is starting to become a habit. in my case, a hobby

im just looking at my computer. straight smack at the screen. there are so much that i want to say and i feel so limited. i feel like im losing drive. its funny how work is the only thing that im looking forward to every morning. like its going to get me anywhere. anyway, its funny how things can go horribly wrong in a span of a couple of days. so screw it.

you know what i miss about being single? its the part of not caring. its the part of only thinking about yourself. not to consider if someone's getting hurt or affected with what i say or do. its like im finding an excuse to be irresponsible.