im afraid to fly, im not that naive

there's so much crap in the world. i just wanna run myself over if that was humanly possible. im restricted by so many things and the only thing person that makes things better is the one that i snapped at. god. i just want to live like a normal person. i should have just taken a rank and file job. i should have just seriously gone for whoever. im tired of living up to what everyone expects me to be and im tired of pleasing them. im tired of understanding what could happen tomorrow. im fucking tired. and thats all there is to it.